Ups and downs...

Some time has passed since the last update.There are a couple of reasons for this. One is that there has been such inconsistency in Mom's "condition." There have been good days and bad. We had a stretch of about two weeks where she was doing so well I began to wonder about a miracle on her behalf. Then she would have more struggles. Then level off again. A report one day would be inaccurate the next.....This last week has brought new challenges. She has experienced dizziness and nausea. Adding new meds to combat these ailments has brought on new side effects. She has experienced difficulty focusing and is just weary of it all....Initially, the doctors told us she might have two days, or two months. It's now been 13 weeks. She assumed that by now, her struggle would be over and she'd be in the loving arms of her Savior. She is ready and anxious for this next step....The other reason is more personal. Without being in denial, it is so much easier to accept our new "normal" and continue life as if it will never end. I fight not to begin grieving before it is time to grieve. I shove my impending loss to the back of my mind and focus on enjoying the times I have with her. Tears are just one thought process away, so I try not to think, or else not to go "there." That is difficult when I update. BUT because I know you care and are praying for us, it is so worth the struggle....Thanks to all of you who have some along side of us with support and prayers. God loves to see that community among His children. Please continue to pray for wisdom and strength and acceptance of God's timing and plan for all of us as we move forward.