My Mama......

Apologies for such a huge gap in the updates. The reason is that Mom has not had a "typical" day to tell you about. She would have "good" days and then struggle for a few days. Just as I was ready to post something, things would turn.....Now, however, her days are more consistent. "I don't have good days anymore" She isn't in pain much, but just feels "yucky." Some days, she sleeps a lot. Others, she's just tired of being here and wants to go "home"....while we desperately want her to stay. But the "good" days seem to be a thing of the past. She will most days push herself to get up and do her makeup and ready herself for the day. By that time, typically, that is enough to drain her energy and leave her exhausted. She continues to focus on the Lord, read her Bible and minister to folks as the opportunity presents itself. I choose to "not go there." Desiring, rather, to live as if her days will go on forever. It is not fair to her for me mourn while she is still here. I think that is where most of us are, telling her bye each time with, "Love you! See ya later!"....knowing full well that each time with her may be our last. She knows we love her. We know she loves us. It is enough....for now....